Lessons from my Dogs

Enjoy the ride.

Life kicks ya in the butt, that is inevitable
Like kids moving far away and the hurt of missing them.
However I am lucky in that they are both in a good space with their lives and although they are far I can feel good about them being so independent.

So, I let them live their lives and I will be happy for them.....

As for me.. I'm going to listen to my dogs and sit back and enjoy the ride, who knows what is around the next corner.  I just hope it is something fun, like a ride on a sled being pulled by 5 of my best friends.

January 2nd

January 2nd.

A time for resolutions, you know, eat better and exercise more.  Promises that most of us wont keep.  This year I have decided to make only one promise and that is to just be myself.  I am a good person and will continue to be so and if that is not good enough for some people I know and have tried to get along with, then that is their problem not mine.  
Let me tell you, that assertion has taken a large weight off of my shoulders and it is only day 2!

January 2nd.

In the past what this usually meant was that the house had returned to normal.
Holiday decorations are put away for another year with no trace but the one lone trinket that always gets left out and forgotten.

However this year is different.
My baby boy didn't make it home which changed the whole atmosphere of the season.
It just wasn't the same.  In fact I would say it didn't really feel like Christmas at all.

Then why I ask myself have I not taken the tree down yet?
It is as if I am prolonging the season in hopes that it may stop reality crashing down; no he really did not come home and in 3 sleeps my baby girl leaves once again.

That, and I really like the way my tree looks in the dark with only the lights lit up.

January 2nd.



I sit here in the quiet of the morning... still a holiday for me as my hubby has another couple days off and has gone outside with our furry kids leaving me to lounge inside in my comfy clothes.... but not for long as we are heading out in a couple of hours with the four legged babies to run them with harness and sled, and you wont find me missing out on that adventure anytime soon!

January 2nd.

A new year which means the promise of new beginnings.

Happy trails and may they be blessed with fresh snow and perfect temperatures....... see ya out there!

Dog Tired

 A great way to begin the new year!

My New Years wish for everyone is to be as satisfied with what ever it is you choose to do this year as my pups were after their first ever run in harness today.

Way to go Elly and Rigby!!

My Dog Ate My Homework!!

Puppies will be puppies.

They are naughty as they learn their ranking in the pack.

They teeth so they chew.... everything!  Including holes through the carpet into the floor boards, sigh.

Thing is I am thinking that at 8 months old the teething should be pretty much finished... no?

Perhaps it is, or perhaps it is not..... in any case Rigby chews a lot.   It is pretty much non-stop in our house.

 He chews while hanging on the couch.

           He chews outside in the yard.   

                                                                                                He chews anywhere!!!!

Problem though isn't so much with the chewing, as long as he is chewing things that are human approved, the trouble lies in that when he is finished chewing he will actually swallow the item!!

I am qute worried about our Rigby.  Having a constant watch on what he is pooping and how much.  This dog has swallowed small chew bones, socks, mittens, strips of material, sticks, pieces of stuffed animals, bottle caps..... well you name it is has been swallowed!

I do feed my dogs... really I do.

So, if I ever tell you I've lost something because my dog ate it... believe me, he probably did!!

'Tis the Season

He was safe.

Her arms encircled him holding him tight. 
Keeping him warm and happy.

All he ever knew was this place.
With her.
As long as they were together everything would be right in his world.

The days were getting hectic, so much was going on around him.
It was confusing, but okay as long as she stayed within his sight.
Changes were always taking place in his world, and this was no exception. 
The house took on a new atmosphere with new sights and new smells to engulf him in his small world, and although changes can be scary this was kind of exciting.  
So much to explore.

The day started off as any other.
Breakfast with the love of his life, bathing, getting dressed, you know the normal beginnings to any normal weekend.  On this particular day they were heading out to somewhere new.

So many people, so many sounds.
Keeping her in his sight he took in everything with wonder.

Then without any warning he was pulled away from the only comfort he had ever known and was thrust into some strange mans arms.
A man with hair that covered most of his face, a large man, a strange man.
Panic set in.
NO! This could not be happening, he wanted.. no.. he NEEDED to be back in the safety of his own world.  He struggled but to no avail, he was not able to escape.  Realizing this he did the only thing he knew of... he cried, and he cried hard.
Someone would have to save him, put him back into the arms of the one and only.
His mother.

JJ's first Christmas picture with Santa.

I'moldenoughitcanstopnow!

What the hell???

I am up early (what's new??) .. way too early.
Sitting here stewing over things that normally do not bother me.

Finally Hubby and the puppies awake and it's time to go out with the big kids for our morning walk/run play time.
I head up stairs to get changed into my play clothes and burst into tears.

Sitting on the edge of the bed I ask myself why... why in shits sake are you blubbering like a baby????!!!??
....and I answer myself with "I don't wanna go outside with the dogs!! I go out every day, morning and night, it's not fair that I have to go out every day!!"  There is a definite whine to my voice.

Getting up and wiping tears from my face I go and tell Ray he and the furry kids are on their own today.  I just am not going out.
Then I burst into tears again.

What in the world????

I haven't had to deal with these emotions flooding my system in months... I seem to have been on a good swing lately. 

Oh the joys of PMSing ... when will I stop this already?
I'm never gonna have anymore kids!
I'm old enough already for this to stop and go away already!

Fuck it... where's the chocolate???  WHERE IS THE CHOCOLATE?!!??
NO!! Wait... I don't want chocolate... I want... I want... crap! I don't know what I want....

oh bloody hell... here comes those tears again!!

Take me to my Happy Place!!

I've recently encountered someone who doesn't like me.

In fact I think this person down right loathes me.

Normally this sort of thing doesn't bother me, I'd shrug my shoulders and carry on.  After all in life not everyone is going to like every person.  I know I've met those whom I didn't care for and wouldn't want to spend time with.

This time however it does affect me in a personal way.  I don't want to go into details, but due to this hate on they have for me it has changed the way I do business in this particular field.  
That is what has bothered me.  The fact that I've let it change what I do.

An anger is building up inside me and I want to run down the streets with a bullhorn and let everyone know what they have been doing. I know things that only a couple of us know... a secret that could damage them in a huge way.
I want to.  But I wont.
That is not me..... and knowing who I am I know this negative feeling will pass, I will find it in my heart to let it go.

It has to happen because this anger is like poison in my body and I hate the feeling of it coursing through my veins.
Life is too short to feel so much enmity.

Still it bugs me to no end that this arse can get away with what they do.  I suppose soon enough they will be seen by others for what they really are on their own and will not need help from me.

So in the meantime I shall continue to breath in and out.
Close my eyes and go to my happy place.

snow, mountains, dogs, good friends, clear cool crisp skies.... my happy place.