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Spring has Sprung already??

I've had an amazing winter.

Traveled over 300 miles behind the backside of some incredible furry friends in temperatures ranging from -5 to -40.

I've raced my first ever sprint with my own furry friends.

We've introduced a new friend to the pack.... a fast Alaskan changing the dynamics of our family.

My son on stage, growing into an incredible talented young man.

My daughter finding love outside of her family... the beginnings of her 'own' family.

I cannot believe that the snow is almost all gone, that the mush, dirt and slop has arrived.. that dog sledding is finished for the season... we still had one more race to go, but the frozen lake is no more.

Makes me so sad to say goodbye....

I love winter, the cold icy breath that hovers around my head with ice crystals forming on my fur laced hood.

The energy my babies let off in the cold is catchy, the joy on their faces when they see the harness, their love and trust of me, my trust of them.

How many days until winter returns?

All By Myself

I sit at home, once again, alone.

I spend a lot of my time alone these days...
time to relflect, time to feel sorry for myself too.

I try not to feel sorry for me... I have a great life... only it is spent alone most of the time.

I am surrounded by friends, yet I don't have any either.... does this make sense to you? It does to me.
You see I have so many people in my life that I can call a friend, from the age of 16 all the way to their '80's... they have all told me to call them if ever I need anything... anything.
They all come and will talk ages with me in my store.... and I to them.

But at the end of the day I have no one I can really call on if I'm feeling blue, or lonely... I do not seem to have that one close friend... no one close to me anyhow....
I have a few friends, Ontario, Calgary and England whom I can call 'best' friends... those friends I can call on in a real time of need.... but I no longer have that one true friend just around the corner anymore...... makes me so sad.... and lonely

Once Again

I thought that Saturday was cool.

I was given an 8 dog team to run..... we ran 30km.s in -30 weather (if not colder with wind chill)

What an incredible experience... I feel so lucky to have this opportunity.

Even the slight frost bite on my toes wont keep me from heading out again (although if I never run in -30 again I wont be sad)

Rick and Dena have been wonderful, patient and terrific role models... I can see why my son was so hooked.

Could this be my Heaven?

Amazing, that is the only word I can describe what it was like.

I ran 6 dogs for 24km with Mr. Musher and his family yesterday.... it was bloody cold.... it was bloody brilliant!

There was no noise but the sound of the sled across the snow, the occasional bark of an impatient dog as we maybe were not going fast enough at times and the rush of the blood running through my ears.
The cold was something I've never experienced like I did yesterday, I think it was because I was so aware of everything around me. It was a -36 with wind chill kinda day.

Yet I wasn't cold... my big toes and thumbs got a little numb at times.. but would warm themselves up if I started peddling to keep my limbs moving.... but icicles hanging off my eye lashes was something I've never experienced until today.

Until you experience it yourself it is something hard to describe.
My only regret is that it was not my dogs I was running, I think the bond between us would deepen for sure.... I love Mr. Mushers dogs.. I just can't remember all their names!

I now look forward to the next run! Oh yeah.. today!!!!

Thanksgiving

-16 outside.

I'm very thankful for mittens, down filled coats and toques.


My baby boy has been home this weekend, sure miss the kids.
Lifes new chapter is a lonely one.
both the kids are gone, the indoor dog passed away, the husband spends most of his time at the shop..... not sure I am enjoying this new phase of life.

but I am thankful for the time I do get to spend with my family and the love that they share with me no matter their distance.
I'm thankful for the time I've spent with each of them and the memories that have been left to me.

What are Words Anyway?

There is nothing that can be said to describe the heart ache, the pain and emptyness that is felt this day.

I have always looked up to this couple very much so..... Mrs. F. whom I worked with in kindergarten, was a woman of calm self control, someone I looked up to and wanted to be like. I always wished that we had gotten closer while working.
The chance that we could have led in Girl Guides together excited me and I was so disappointed when that fell through last year.

Mr. G.... crazy Mr. G.... you and I are alike in so many ways when it comes to how we run our businesses, and I always looked forward to your visits in my place and I would find an excuse to visit yours.... I also looked up to you as a mentor for my business... still do.

....and now this..... will it ever be the same for you both?

no, it will not.
when will the time come when you leave this town and the memories that it holds that must be so painful for you now.

no words can describe the pain
no words can describe how I feel for you

Why a young boy with so much going for him.... a gold medalist in fencing, many many friends..... a loving family..... who knows what goes through someones mind.
Why did he feel he was so alone that he had to leave us, his parents, his little sister???

The pain that is left behind when someone takes their life is beyond measure.
The love that is out pouring for the family is also beyond measure and I hope that they are aware of that.... that it finds it's way through the grief shroud that must be covering their days now.